heartbreaking

uuuf.tamat semester 4.... ntah lepas ke sem 5 ke tidak, ntah la.
takot! tp setelah dgr kata2 lecturer, serta setelah menilai semula kelemahan2 diri serta memutarkan otak ni sekreatif mungkin utk berdiri di bumi realiti ni, aku rasa...ape ape ajelaaaa....
Allah knows what's best for us... and He knows how hard we work. in my case, my work might be a lil bit (lil bit??) huh...maybe simply not enough. fara d blom cukop matang utk terus ke hadapan. maka, i really think that wateva happens, its the best for me. but kena tanggung sedikit sebanyak consequences nye lah. such as....must WAIT for a sem ker... kena tahan malu join junior ...uhu!! (konpem je kan fail aku neh...haisy!! mmg tak mintak but....haihhh...lets just see the miracle lah!)
ok ok...musti ada je yg kata "farah!dont say like that! jgn mintak camtu...." or maybe "faraaah...result tak kua lagik...jgn pk bukan2...." or maybe simply say "rileks la....takkan nye..." haha.... rileks la guys.... i know where i stand. i know how bad i worked.so i deserve it.
i AM NOT being NEGATIVE. ini pemikiran POSTIVE aku. am preparing to accept wat ever it takes. so that i'll be stronger in future.
extend tak extend, blakang kire. yang penting, perjuangan harus diteruskan. betol cakap en ismar, "jgn rasa down bagi yg tak lepas....tak semestinya grad cepat tu hebat." no offense, bukan nak suroh sume org grad lambat....but tak semua mampu grad on time kan. yg bisa terus dgn pantas, go ahead...itu sudah menjadi kurniaan Allah kpd anda untuk mara lebih pantas dari yang lain-lain.ehek!yer yer...maybe sum wud say, im saying dis as to cover up myself as a loser... but sorry, im not a loser!! i may be slow but never a loser. loser quits and i wud never do so! kan nurul! well.....penah almost give up. NOTE: ALMOST! but sgt sayang kepada architorture, simply irresistable. tanya la mana2 dak architecture seluruh dunia (yg mmg pilih archi as line yg diminati...) ....suma akan kata architecture is architorture but thats the beauty of it. the TORTURE is the THING! btol tak ?! (cakap je btol even tak btol...haha!!)
well.... to conclude, i know that (which in my case, its architecture), setiap org ada satu perkara yg takkan dia lepaskan walau apa pun terjadi... cth nye, seorang pelumba motor takkan serik berlumba walaupun berkali cedera parah eksiden motor, seorang perenang takkan serik bermain air walaupun laut pernah hampir meragut nyawanya...dan seorang pencinta takkan berhenti mencintai walaupun berkali2 hati disakiti tanpa sedar ....eh?

miahaha!! dah stat sengal...off for now!! XP