Saturday, August 27, 2016

Makin sayang dan makin reyanundu!

Assalamualaikum.

Hai blog. Sudah lama tak ketemu.
Oh iyalah, tuan kamu ini kan suka tanam tebu di bibir. Sedap jugak telan air tebu sejuk dalam cuaca suam suam macam ini ye dak?

*krik. Krik*

Wait. Aku ini sudah tua sebab masih layan blog atau memang aku ni suka acah acah ramai orang nak ambil tahu pasal kehidupan diva aku?
Agak sedih bunyinya disitu. *seret selimut dan sekotak tisu nangis bawah tangga*

Sebenarnya, aku lagi suka tak ada orang baca. (Ye Farah, dah seratus lapan belas juta kali kau sebut kau suka orang tak baca blog kau, Farah. Kau bitter ke apa sebenarnya? Pfft!)
Bagi aku, ini cara oldskool aku untuk ganti masa lapang aku yang dah lama tak diisi dengan travelling kerana uang lebih pantas travel mengalahkan bullet-train.

Kenapa tak tulis diary?
Sebab kalau tulis atas kertas, nanti makin banyak pokok ditebang demi seratus helai kertas sehari untuk memenuhi kehendak ku menulis. Ececehhh. Over sangat kau!
Oh tidak lah, katalah ada orang terjumpa diary berbentuk hardcopy, tulis pulak punya laaa cheesy kisah kisahnya, tak ke aku wajar terjun longkang menahan malu sebab tatabahasa mahupun tulisan cakar ayam itu? (Ehh. Walaupun aku cikgu tadika yg memerlukan tulisan aku comel supaya askar askar aku paham, tapi bila mood mengarang aku muncul, tak mustahil tulisan aku jadi macam tulisan bahasa Sanskrit)

Baiklah. Sementelah ada mood sekangkang kera sekali sekala ni, apa kata aku update kisah kehidupan seribu dua ribu menjak ini, fefeeling je lah konon ada peminat teruja nak baca perkembangan hakak yang kembang sentiasa ini *kesat hingus lagi sambung nangis*

1. Alhamdulillah, dah masuk tahun kedua hakak menjadi guru tadika yang makin saiko. HAHAHA.
Disebabkan aku memang tak reti marah, tapi tahun ni saiko aku makin merunsingkan agaknya.
Yang mana student lama tak pass jugak abc, hakak tulis abc sampai z kat tapak kaki dia guna chopstick (rasakan. Menggelupur geli kau Nwahahaha!)
Yang jerit kat aku, aku bagi pilihan nak timeout  muhasabah diri satu minit atau nk kena ikat kat tiang (i know! Itu sounds scary, tapi itu je pilihan yg si degil takkan pilih. Hiks. Hakak akan cuba perbaikpulih pilihan jawapan denda bagi yang misbehave ye anak anak. Just so you know, sikit pun tak pernah hakak nak rotan ke cubit ke bebudak ni. Amanah kot. Termarah sikit pun lepas tu aku yang cengeng bila nak tdo malam tu, ni kan nak sakitkan dorang pulak, takkan mampu). Saiko paling tak boleh belah adalah apabila aku suruh dorang pilih nak teacher Farah versi garang ke versi cakap lemah lembut. HAHAHAH.

2. Ekonomi nak kata stabil tak juga, tapi Alhamdulillah, sentiasa cukup, dan surprisingly tak sangka mampu juga nak usahakan  setelkan sendiri sedikit sebanyak hantaran tanpa meminta claim daripada bonda mahupun encik Tunang.

3. Badan makin kembang. Orang makin dekat majlis depa makin giat diet lah excercise lah nk kurus, aku makin craving makan memacam. Eh tampar kang!

4. Sedang stabilkan kesihatan.
Ini tak mampu nak elaborate sangat. Tapi salah satunya baru baru ini aku kurang darah. Jenuh jugak lah kadang kadang tu sampai sakit belakang. Eh ada kaitan ke?

5. Survived from dengue. Syukur sangat, sebab tak pergi check pun. Masa sakit muntah muntah sakit belakang segala baru check dan doctor kabor kata darah aku ni pernah kena denggi.

6. Sejujurnya, aku dengan encik Tunang masih kenal mengenal. Kalau kau tanya aku kenapa aku boleh jadi dengan dia, entah aku tatau nak jawab macam mana. I just feel it is him and it is time. Walaupun aku masih tak reti mengemas rumah, tak reti masak nasi dagang, tak reti goreng bihun putih kegemaran encik Tunang, masih belum mencapai berat badan ideal, masih sememeh masih blur pada situasi situasi tertentu, masih degil dan fickle terhadap careerpath, and the list goes.
Kadang kadang ada juga lah rasa betul ke dia nak aku, dia tak malu ke bakal isteri dia ni sado kemain ni? Sanggup ke kalau tiba tiba isteri dia ni nanti serba kurang belaka ni, lemak je lebih (pfft!)
Tapi entah, bila berbual atau berjumpa, hilang semua questions tuh. Malah hati makin sayang. Gituh kau Paghah, bukan main cliche sangat pui!!

Baiklah, itu petanda aku perlu segera stop menulis post ini sebelum my future self muntah darah bila baca balik post ini barang setahun dua akan datang.

Yang Terkejut Budaya Barangkali,
Farah Diana.

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Chin up!

Assalamualaikum
Okay. I am really glad that no one really read my blog hahahahahha.
Senang mak nak curhat sini kihkihkih.
Because i really want to express words but every single channel, ada je la tukang bertenggek. Haihh!
Sini jangan kacau please. Baca ke tak ke...diam je. Kbai.

Am i having my mid-life crisis now? Dah tua kot mid life jadahnya? Grrr!
I love teaching. Or wait. Let me rephrase that, i love being a preschool teacher. But truth is, i am not really confident with myself. Besides, the economic atmosphere is also not helping either.
I am slowly getting demotivated, tired, exhausted.
I feel bad.
Super bad.
I owe those kids a lot. I wanted to make it up this year, but i seem to underperform...again. *sigh!*
I am trying hard to pull myself back up, to fight for it this time.
Why is it so hard?
Until yesterday, when mummy wished congrats to my sis for her achievement on Guru Prestasi Cemerlang with a beautiful set of words about being a teacher.

Okay. See?
I know i can do this.
Whenever i feel stuck, i will write crap and pull myself to be back on track.

Someone is really doing his best to spend the rest of his life with me, and i simply give up mine?
Come on, Farah Diana, you are much better than this.

Dear Mr. P,
IF. I say, IF (sebab saya tak rasa awak akan pernah terjebak layan blog saya ni pun muahahaha), you ever find this post,
Ketahuilah bahawasanya selain  Yang Satu, Mummy dan keluarga saya, setiap hari semangat saya semakin pulih hanya kerana terharu dengan usaha awak. Thank you. May Allah bless you dunia dan akhirat.
Ok.
Tett. I am starting to sound cheesy. Sangat not me HAHAHAH.
Keep it to yourself, Farah.

Sebelum aku makin menjadi jadi kekaratan jiwa, baik aku log off. Pfft!

Yang Jiwang Sekali Sekala,
Farah Diana.

Sunday, March 27, 2016

Blog? Apa tu?

Assalamualaikum people.

It is amazing i still feel realize i have a blog.
And.
Still feel like writing.
Haha.

Well, do people still blog these days?
And do people even read blogs anyway?
Okay.
For those who still do (write), may i know why do u still doing it?
Just curious anyway.
Does people blog for the same reason as i do; to share thoughts regardless anyone reading & to simply throw some words for own future reference?
Hmmm.

Ok. This post seem to have so many questions and i doubt anyone ever bother to answer me hahahahha.
Oh well. I'll just continue writing whenever i feel like to. Not gonna bother anyone, no? 😊

Yang Penuh Persoalan,
Farah Diana.

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Assalamualaikum.

Yahooo! Even though the my wash-off time is not that long after all, but at least i can say that im partly cured.
Gituh! Cured katakau! Macam dah kronik disease kann! Hahahaha
Memang ah kronik, bila emosi kau asyik tergugat je gara gara media sosial tu. Tak habis habis nak bikin assumption lepas tu sendiri gigit jari emo lapan tingkat.
Baiklah, sekurang kurangnya sekarang aku mampu kawal diri untuk tapis emosi sendiri. Gituh.
Tahniah, cik Paghah!  😂
I miss those days where resources were not on fingertips, thus the authenticity and the level of kepolosan of the informations can be trusted more.
Oh well, life goes on, though. i had to do what i had to do. So, be it.

Yang Fefeeling Accomplished,
Farah Diana.

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

Wash it Off!

Photocredits: Konah


Assalamualaikum.

Oh well.
Perhaps, i came to my sense where i am addicted to that social platform we call facebook, no?
To say it does not generate positive vibes thoughout these years would be unfair, though. But right at this moment, I somehow noticed that I have been badly influenced, and it is depleting my brain in rationalize things. Thus, good bye, Facebook! You'll be missed!
I really do have to undergo this "treatment", until i can calm down and put things in order professionally. And after I can differentiate what is real and not. AND after I repair my relationship with The One And Only.
Yes.
That's it.
Got it!
Really.
I have been astray for too long that my spiritual activities have been neglected for quite some time.
Shame on YOU, Farah!

There. Did I just made a confession?

Yes I did.

And I hope I am given the chance to put myself back on track. In Sha Allah.
Amiin

Yang Perlu Bertenang,
Farah Diana MH.