Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Chin up!

Assalamualaikum
Okay. I am really glad that no one really read my blog hahahahahha.
Senang mak nak curhat sini kihkihkih.
Because i really want to express words but every single channel, ada je la tukang bertenggek. Haihh!
Sini jangan kacau please. Baca ke tak ke...diam je. Kbai.

Am i having my mid-life crisis now? Dah tua kot mid life jadahnya? Grrr!
I love teaching. Or wait. Let me rephrase that, i love being a preschool teacher. But truth is, i am not really confident with myself. Besides, the economic atmosphere is also not helping either.
I am slowly getting demotivated, tired, exhausted.
I feel bad.
Super bad.
I owe those kids a lot. I wanted to make it up this year, but i seem to underperform...again. *sigh!*
I am trying hard to pull myself back up, to fight for it this time.
Why is it so hard?
Until yesterday, when mummy wished congrats to my sis for her achievement on Guru Prestasi Cemerlang with a beautiful set of words about being a teacher.

Okay. See?
I know i can do this.
Whenever i feel stuck, i will write crap and pull myself to be back on track.

Someone is really doing his best to spend the rest of his life with me, and i simply give up mine?
Come on, Farah Diana, you are much better than this.

Dear Mr. P,
IF. I say, IF (sebab saya tak rasa awak akan pernah terjebak layan blog saya ni pun muahahaha), you ever find this post,
Ketahuilah bahawasanya selain  Yang Satu, Mummy dan keluarga saya, setiap hari semangat saya semakin pulih hanya kerana terharu dengan usaha awak. Thank you. May Allah bless you dunia dan akhirat.
Ok.
Tett. I am starting to sound cheesy. Sangat not me HAHAHAH.
Keep it to yourself, Farah.

Sebelum aku makin menjadi jadi kekaratan jiwa, baik aku log off. Pfft!

Yang Jiwang Sekali Sekala,
Farah Diana.

Sunday, March 27, 2016

Blog? Apa tu?

Assalamualaikum people.

It is amazing i still feel realize i have a blog.
And.
Still feel like writing.
Haha.

Well, do people still blog these days?
And do people even read blogs anyway?
Okay.
For those who still do (write), may i know why do u still doing it?
Just curious anyway.
Does people blog for the same reason as i do; to share thoughts regardless anyone reading & to simply throw some words for own future reference?
Hmmm.

Ok. This post seem to have so many questions and i doubt anyone ever bother to answer me hahahahha.
Oh well. I'll just continue writing whenever i feel like to. Not gonna bother anyone, no? 😊

Yang Penuh Persoalan,
Farah Diana.

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Assalamualaikum.

Yahooo! Even though the my wash-off time is not that long after all, but at least i can say that im partly cured.
Gituh! Cured katakau! Macam dah kronik disease kann! Hahahaha
Memang ah kronik, bila emosi kau asyik tergugat je gara gara media sosial tu. Tak habis habis nak bikin assumption lepas tu sendiri gigit jari emo lapan tingkat.
Baiklah, sekurang kurangnya sekarang aku mampu kawal diri untuk tapis emosi sendiri. Gituh.
Tahniah, cik Paghah!  😂
I miss those days where resources were not on fingertips, thus the authenticity and the level of kepolosan of the informations can be trusted more.
Oh well, life goes on, though. i had to do what i had to do. So, be it.

Yang Fefeeling Accomplished,
Farah Diana.

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

Wash it Off!

Photocredits: Konah


Assalamualaikum.

Oh well.
Perhaps, i came to my sense where i am addicted to that social platform we call facebook, no?
To say it does not generate positive vibes thoughout these years would be unfair, though. But right at this moment, I somehow noticed that I have been badly influenced, and it is depleting my brain in rationalize things. Thus, good bye, Facebook! You'll be missed!
I really do have to undergo this "treatment", until i can calm down and put things in order professionally. And after I can differentiate what is real and not. AND after I repair my relationship with The One And Only.
Yes.
That's it.
Got it!
Really.
I have been astray for too long that my spiritual activities have been neglected for quite some time.
Shame on YOU, Farah!

There. Did I just made a confession?

Yes I did.

And I hope I am given the chance to put myself back on track. In Sha Allah.
Amiin

Yang Perlu Bertenang,
Farah Diana MH.

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Terharu

Assalamualaikum!

Been having sore throat last week. And we have a performance for the Maulid Nabi's celebration next week.
Besides the parade around masjid, we were assigned to perform a nasyid. So Tough Tigers (5yo) combining with the Excellent Eagles (5yo too), Eco Explorers (6yo) & Planet Protectors (6yo) will be performing a nasyid together.
Before i learnt that we were to combine, i have started practicing with my Tough Tigers despite my vocal disability at that moment.

Teacher: Okay kids, i am pretty sure my voice is not beautiful at this moment (pui! Macam la time tak sakit tu merdu suara kah Paghah?!),  but just bear with me and sing along the song i am going to teach you, alright?
Kids: Yes, teacher.

After completing 2 verses, a student voiced out,

Amna: Teacher, how about we put on the song and we sing along to the music like u did earlier, teacher?
(And their friends nodded in unity)
Teacher: Hah! You want to tell me you dont like my voice? It's horrible, rightttt? (Pura-pura sentap)
Amna & Ayla: NO, teacher NO NO NO! Suara teacher sedaaaaap!
(And yes, i dont know but sometimes these kids they agree on things like they just had a meeting earlier!)
Teacher: Dont lie! Im sure this is because u prefer to put on the music because you dont want to hurt your ears listening to my voice,arent u?
Amna: No, teacher, NO! Suara teacher seeedaaap.
Amna suruh teacher pasang lagu sebab senang la teacher tak payah nyanyi bukan sebab suara teacher tak sedap, tapi sebab kesian teacher kena nyanyi. Teacher kan sakit tekak, kalau teacher nyanyi juga, nanti bila tekak teacher nak baik?
Ayla: Ha! Betul tu! Yes yes teacher. Put on the song please!

.....(krik krik!)

Oooookay!
Mata teacher masuk habuk, sayang!

Such pure hearts, at that small age, they can consider pros and cons of things on others, whether they can make it better or worse.
Masha Allah. Im touched!

Kids,
I owe to all of you so much!
All of you taught so much more than what i have tried to teach you all these while.
I pray and will always pray that all of you become a well-being adults, khalifahs, that will bring our nation and people up to another level filled with His blessings, in sha Allah.
Its okay if u dont remember teacher Farah, as long as you serve to The Almighty and help beautify our future, im pretty sure i can smile and be proud of you (already am! 😊)

Yang Sungguh Terharu,
Farah Diana MH.