of Choral Speaking and sports

Assalamualaikum.

Last week, we had belated CNY celebration at school.
As this year Puan Principal suggested my 5 year-olds to perform choral speaking, so i just took the challenge and guess what?
They NAILED it!
So cute! Alhamdulillah.
Walaupun nak train depa mau terkeluar jugak anak tekak tetiap hari because i only allow half an hour practice everyday.
Kang hakak amik whole day session practice kang mau menjawab hakak dengan parents apa anak depa belajaq kat sekolah ni kang haaaaa naya!

So, they themselves enjoyed it too. Alhamdulillah.

So this month and next month can focus on classes since no celebration involved (Thank God! Kalau taaaaak jenuh hakak nak kena perah otak choreograph and training depa T_T)

BUT! Big event is coming this July. I hope to start early this year.
Event that i look forward to, not just during my teaching years. since i was school too!
SPORTS DAY!

Who doesn't love the sports day?
Okay. Fine. I'm one of those who loves the adrenaline rush during those events.
Not all favor these kind of atmosphere.
But i do love it.
Walaupun sejak sekolah hakak ni sado, paling kuat pun lontar peluru lah setiap kali hari sukan. Bukan menang pun. Pui!
But i came to love (more) sports event when i started studying in boarding school.
Since we were trapped in the school. Not that we could go out see the world that often, TV apatah lagi!
Soooooooo....... I opt for Volleyball sebab hakak malas lari padang jejauh. Seperti bola jaring dan basketball dan hoki dan handball. KAH! Pemalas lari sebenarnya HAHAHAHA!
NO. Dont get me wrong, in volleyball, it's not that you don't have to run.
You have to move, bro!
Pala hotak kau nak seru bola panggil kat kau supaya kau boleh spike?!
You gotta step on it and BAMM!
Okay. I'm over excited. Rindu bola tampar wey!
I still remember how Coach Ismail will scream at me not to "paku" my feet to the court! HAHAHAHA
And how my team mates feel like strangling me when i took my sweet time to get off my bum from the court after i mislanded my spike.
Or how we could not resist to train even during the fasting month.
And and and how the other kids were inspired by our game during our Zon Utara Tournament that time.
I miss my Srikandi-s.
Oh yes,
I call my volleyball team Srikandi because we were trained by two great coaches.
One is like an abah to us,
the other is abah tiri. HAHAHAHA LOL.
Just kidding.
Cikgu Mail memang saiko kuat kat kitorang and boleh menangis dengar dia menyumpah kalau kitorang salah move masa game.
Tapi cikgu Mail lah yang push aku join team.
Rugi ketinggian aku katanya kalau tak dimanfaatkan dalam any games.
Yes, ingat lagi satu hari tu masa awal-awal masuk sekolah tu,
aku tengah jalan nak balik dorm lepas kelas.
Selamba kodok Cikgu Mail sergah aku

"YOU! The tall girl!!"
*Gulp!* "Yes, sir?"
"Riadah, go join basketball team"
"Err! NO, sir. I prefer volleyball instead"
Senyap jap.
"hmmm. Ha good. Volleyball pun bagus! Good! See you then"
Sila maklum eh, conversation ni berjarak agak agak 10ft or more so imagine the volume lah. Jenuh mak tadah muka kena sergah camtu tau!
Then later petang tu join riadah, hambik kau!
Padan la see you later bagai, dia coach volleyball time. Masak gak aku dikerjakan!
BUT, i fall in love with volleyball eversince. Lunyai gak la sport shoes aku tetiap sem gara gara volleyball!

Oh. Jauh pula hakak melalut.
Back to the love of the event.
Next big event for our kindy i can assume it is going to be the sports day.
In July.
Theme? Nanti dah dekat hakak reveal ye.
But im all hyped already.
Song for the Tigers' warm up act dah select. Dah lekat dah ni dah on the loop sangat dah ni.
Choreography dah ada idea serba sikit.
Items pun dah ada idea tinggal nak buat props je kot nanti ecewah!


TAPI,
I doubt i could be THAT hyper then.
Let's just pray for the best.
I know my Tigers would do great. In sha Allah!

Yang Hyper,
Farah Diana.
:

Swim fish Swim!

Assalamualaikum.

Alright, straight to the point, today was quite rough.
Errr....I am like this, where i will easily be brought down by one misfortune even i have had more good things happen on that day. Haishhh. Really got to fix that trait, though.
BUT.
Alhamdulillah.
When i sit back and reevaluate my day today, i think i deserve to be happy and accomplished than being down.

Kindy had Maulidur Rasul celebration this morning. Just a simple one, parade around the mosque with selawat, followed by performances by the kids; group speech by the 6 year-olds, nasyid by the little ones (4 and 5 and the toddlers too).
Then off we went back to our classes for break and then i had to deal with a cranky new girl.
She was okay since morning but well, she decided to test her teacher after that. No worries, girl, i still love you. We'll fix your dramas next week after the CNY break, okay? (Trust me, i was and am still a drama queen too, so let teacher teach you how to play it wisely. HE HE HE. Just kidding!)
Because i had to deal with a case then, i let the others explore their imaginations with play dough.
There was this one boy really i can't tell whether or not he already catch his lessons or not.
But today, he caught my attention with his spider play-dough. It was beautifully crafted i did not believe he did it at first.

Okay laaa okay laaaa. Maybe ada la bebudak yg pernah buat lagi power dari ni. 

Its just me who haven't met them yet. So, this is my first time.

Which hits me, 

he has something big hidden in him.

Heck, scratch that.

EVERY child has something special hidden in him/her. It is us, moms & dads (or/and teachers) to try surface their talent. 

I don't really "see" yet how or where this could lead him to, but I'm pretty sure he might not go on the mainstream but he'll sure shine anyways. 

*okay, teacher Paghah is getting mushy haishhhh. Tak sampai sebulan lagi dengan these new semester, i get attached too easily with my class i think.*

Then, later that day, we cleaned up and it was almost time to go home. Well, it wasn't too soon to release them from class, but it was to short of a time too give them workbooks or read a story.

Hmmm. I couldn't really rely on my lesson plan then.

Suddenly, i just randomly asked them to sit and just randomly do things BUT with their mouth shut (teacher dah penin hey dengar korang riuh benor battery tak pernah habis hish). 

Asked them to clap hands. They did.

Asked them to blink eyes. They did. 

Asked them to raise right and left hand. They did.

Surprisingly. They waited eagerly for the next instructions.

Masya Allah. Thank You for the ilham.

I went a little bit further since they seem to enjoy it.

"Pretend you are a little tree, and u get hit by the wind. Whoooooooooooh"

We swayed our hands left and right slowly.

Then the wind blows harder. AND harder and harrrrder.

You can just imagine how excited they were when i had them play with the speed.

"Now, let's be a fish. 

Swim little fishes.

Swim.

Swim.

Swim."

*Pause. Silence*

"Oh DEAR! 

It's a SHARK! Run away!!! Swim faster. Run run RUN!"

Please, don't lempang me. How can a fish RUN?! But how laaa to describe macam mana ikan nak escape lelaju wey!

"Hide behind the rock!

Shhhhhh!

Take a peek.

Has the shark go away?

Phew!!

Now let's continue swimming, little fishes"

"Teacher! I want to be a whale!"

Okay. Makin enjoy. 

I like it too anyways. So layan je lah. 

We swam as whales and we ate fishes, we ate the octopus, we ate the starfishes too.

They did it and in sync. For the first time i felt like i finally have a program.

In sha Allah. Maybe i can use more of this role play for them to explore their imaginations and perhaps i could think of a way...err...or maybe research more on similar method to incorporate this kind of "drama" to make them catch their lessons faster? 

There.

See, Paghah.

One misfortune should not ruin your day.

Because, "Everyday might not be good, but there is always something good in everyday!"

Till then, love.

Yang Bersyukur,

Farah Diana.

Chin up!

Assalamualaikum
Okay. I am really glad that no one really read my blog hahahahahha.
Senang mak nak curhat sini kihkihkih.
Because i really want to express words but every single channel, ada je la tukang bertenggek. Haihh!
Sini jangan kacau please. Baca ke tak ke...diam je. Kbai.

Am i having my mid-life crisis now? Dah tua kot mid life jadahnya? Grrr!
I love teaching. Or wait. Let me rephrase that, i love being a preschool teacher. But truth is, i am not really confident with myself. Besides, the economic atmosphere is also not helping either.
I am slowly getting demotivated, tired, exhausted.
I feel bad.
Super bad.
I owe those kids a lot. I wanted to make it up this year, but i seem to underperform...again. *sigh!*
I am trying hard to pull myself back up, to fight for it this time.
Why is it so hard?
Until yesterday, when mummy wished congrats to my sis for her achievement on Guru Prestasi Cemerlang with a beautiful set of words about being a teacher.

Okay. See?
I know i can do this.
Whenever i feel stuck, i will write crap and pull myself to be back on track.

Someone is really doing his best to spend the rest of his life with me, and i simply give up mine?
Come on, Farah Diana, you are much better than this.

Dear Mr. P,
IF. I say, IF (sebab saya tak rasa awak akan pernah terjebak layan blog saya ni pun muahahaha), you ever find this post,
Ketahuilah bahawasanya selain  Yang Satu, Mummy dan keluarga saya, setiap hari semangat saya semakin pulih hanya kerana terharu dengan usaha awak. Thank you. May Allah bless you dunia dan akhirat.
Ok.
Tett. I am starting to sound cheesy. Sangat not me HAHAHAH.
Keep it to yourself, Farah.

Sebelum aku makin menjadi jadi kekaratan jiwa, baik aku log off. Pfft!

Yang Jiwang Sekali Sekala,
Farah Diana.

Terharu

Assalamualaikum!

Been having sore throat last week. And we have a performance for the Maulid Nabi's celebration next week.
Besides the parade around masjid, we were assigned to perform a nasyid. So Tough Tigers (5yo) combining with the Excellent Eagles (5yo too), Eco Explorers (6yo) & Planet Protectors (6yo) will be performing a nasyid together.
Before i learnt that we were to combine, i have started practicing with my Tough Tigers despite my vocal disability at that moment.

Teacher: Okay kids, i am pretty sure my voice is not beautiful at this moment (pui! Macam la time tak sakit tu merdu suara kah Paghah?!),  but just bear with me and sing along the song i am going to teach you, alright?
Kids: Yes, teacher.

After completing 2 verses, a student voiced out,

Amna: Teacher, how about we put on the song and we sing along to the music like u did earlier, teacher?
(And their friends nodded in unity)
Teacher: Hah! You want to tell me you dont like my voice? It's horrible, rightttt? (Pura-pura sentap)
Amna & Ayla: NO, teacher NO NO NO! Suara teacher sedaaaaap!
(And yes, i dont know but sometimes these kids they agree on things like they just had a meeting earlier!)
Teacher: Dont lie! Im sure this is because u prefer to put on the music because you dont want to hurt your ears listening to my voice,arent u?
Amna: No, teacher, NO! Suara teacher seeedaaap.
Amna suruh teacher pasang lagu sebab senang la teacher tak payah nyanyi bukan sebab suara teacher tak sedap, tapi sebab kesian teacher kena nyanyi. Teacher kan sakit tekak, kalau teacher nyanyi juga, nanti bila tekak teacher nak baik?
Ayla: Ha! Betul tu! Yes yes teacher. Put on the song please!

.....(krik krik!)

Oooookay!
Mata teacher masuk habuk, sayang!

Such pure hearts, at that small age, they can consider pros and cons of things on others, whether they can make it better or worse.
Masha Allah. Im touched!

Kids,
I owe to all of you so much!
All of you taught so much more than what i have tried to teach you all these while.
I pray and will always pray that all of you become a well-being adults, khalifahs, that will bring our nation and people up to another level filled with His blessings, in sha Allah.
Its okay if u dont remember teacher Farah, as long as you serve to The Almighty and help beautify our future, im pretty sure i can smile and be proud of you (already am! 😊)

Yang Sungguh Terharu,
Farah Diana MH.

When i grow up...

Assalamualaikum!

This month's theme at school is Occupation. And to top it off, i was a little bit out of track since we were busy with the concert too.
But as time moves, they are getting better at their roles (Alhamdulillah! Teacher is very proud of u!!) Hence, the practice usually completed by 10am and we could go back to learning routine after the break.
So today, teacher Paghah decided to sing "Dear _____, what do u want to be when you grow up?"
*just some random song i made them sing to make all of them tell what is his/her ambition*
One of them decided to become a rockstar.
One decided to become a mermaid 😂
Then suddenly, this girl who decided to become a rockstar changed her mind.
"Teacher! I changed my mind. I dont want to be a rockstar"
"Oh. So what do you want to be then?"
"I want to be a Bride!"

😒
..........

Tatau lah teacher Paghah nak gelak ke nak nangis. Jangan la nk caras cita cita teacher sangat, nak! Hadoi lah sayang.

Yang Gelihati,
Farah Diana

Lesson Learnt?

Assalamualaikum

Today, one of the girls opened her friend's bag to find a toy of her friend's.
Well, they are used to sharing so i dont mind that. But nevertheless, i still had to remind her not to open other people's bag without permission (because i told them many times not to do so).
Then suddenly, another girl interrupted,
"Remember the other day, when ******* took S****'s pony without permission, she had to sit at the corner alone. You do not want to do that, right?" She said to her friend that i was talking to.
So indeed, i realized they also learn from things i made their friends do for their misbehaviour.
So i guess, i have to think of more "cute & beautiful" "punishments" for them as i do not want them to feel terrified, i just want them to know and learn what is good and what is not. After aĺl, they are still in a journey of discovering life, how would they know what is right or wrong if not us; the adults, telling them so, no?  Thus, i do not wish them to learn the hard and painful way like i had to when i am an adult (hahahahha. #deep)
Let the good memories teach them how to live appropriately.

Yang Berkobar tapi macam nak demam,
Farah Diana

Breath in, Breath out.

Assalamualaikum.

"How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core where I've become so numb
Without a soul my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home"

Ya Arhamar Rahimin.
Wahai Tuhan yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang.

Wake up, Farah.
Welcome to the real world.
You should've get used to multiple pressure at a time, shouldn't you?

Yang Super Stress (oooooh i really hate to use that S word but that's the only word best describe me at the moment),
Farah Diana.

Sambung belajar?

Assalamualaikum.

Oooh lala. Teacher Paghah's back!
As much as i want to upload photos of me with the little ones, i end up refraining myself from doing so. Entah. Takot kang apa-apa jadi aku jugak yang naya wey! Anak anak orang tuh wey!

So, last few weeks, a new kid was assigned into my class.
Jeng jeng jeng!
A special one indeed.
Handling him makes my heart screaming for some knowledge handling special kids.
They are...well...special! Buat aku rasa nak push harder untuk help them face the real world.

Unfortunately, i have none. I am totally frustrated with myself for not having any skills or knowledge of handling kids, let alone the special ones.

Maybe....

I said MAYBE....it's about time i revise my path ahead?
May Allah ease the journey.

ps: Nak sambung tapi research on WHAT to sambung tak bikin lagi. Lepas tu nk move on into new chapter pun satu hal tuh weh. Cari pasal ke apa aku ni?

Yang Sebenarnya Tengah Ngantok Sebab Penat Practice Concert,
Farah Diana.

Keep calm, Teacher

Assalamualaikum.

Oh well, i love my job anyways.
And i love the kids too.
To the extend that if i scold any of them, i will end up crying myself.
But then, i just realized i can not tolerate LIES at all.
a BIG NO!!
I have shut down one couple and i could at least try to train the future khalifahs not to instill lying in their personality.
Sayang,
If teacher scold you for stealing or lying, please be informed that it is because i love you so much.
Teacher wants you to be a person of dignity, that holds Allah's orders, and stay away from His prohibition. And i am pretty sure i made clear of that.
Please please please be the human that bring your mummy and daddy to Jannah. In sha Allah!
Amiin.

Yang Sedih Terpaksa Bertukar Menjadi Harimau Jadian Harini,
Farah Diana.

Cantik!

Assalamualaikum.

Oh Alhamdulillah, segala gundah gulana drama hari raya sudah pun kembali tenang.
Eceh!
Eh eh eh! Ada geng 'blogger' zaman super rajin update blog tetiba melempar komen pulak dah. Dasar stalker tegar kau kannnn Adian! (tengok! kan aku dah link kan kau muahahahaha!)

Maka, kena cover line balik melempar bicara kat sini ye sebab ada jugak manusia dok singgah sekali sekala. Uhuk!

Okay.
Few weeks ago, i had a little breakdown which lead me back to reality.
I am not really good teaching kids to read.
It's so hard! I just havent got any clue HOW!
But Alhamdulillah, just recently seniors and bosses had given some guide on how to.
I've met some people who sees preschool teachers like "Blerghh! Ajar budak je!"
Well, It's okay. Maybe i myself had similar thoughts on other professions previously, which is i rarely do because i know everyone has their own battle in their field (except for those cari pasal tabur janji manis lepas tu dok dendiam assume aku jauhkan diri segala puii! TETTT!).
Try having at least 5 kids of the same age with 5 different characters, with unpredictable mood swings. HAHAHA! dont get me wrong, i am really enjoying having them as part of my life, as if they're really my own little angels. I dont mind the sweat, at least, maybe at least, doing this will be my share in the Akhirat, in sha Allah.
I love playing with them.
I love hearing them shout my name; "Teacher Farah!", running after me first thing in the morning when i arrive at school, giving me a hug.
I love it when i leave saying goodbye to them, some will return my greet with "Goodbye teacher Farah! I love you!"
I love teasing them too once in a while >.<
I love playing along during breaks where they pretend to be mommies and babies, baking cookies or pretend to dress up for a trip to Legoland!
Allah, when i receive a text in the morning saying "Salam teacher, XXX will not be going to school today, she/he's down with fever", it breaks my heart. But of course i have to pull myself back together cause the others need me too for that 4 hours at school, dont they? All i can do is to pray for their speedy recovery.
Lately, day by day, when the kids are getting more comfortable with teacher Paghah (Alhamdulillah!), they became more active and creative, where the teacher herself have to keep up with & keep updated with their behavior, not to let them go astray...
Sometimes, they do drive me up the walls! No joke, man! There are days when i felt like second thoughts, but Alhamdulillah, end of the day, i had to, and i love to, or willing to, pull myself back together. After all, they are KIDS, the need us to guide them through, dont they?

Which i always remind myself, whatever work i do, or job i have, or career i am on, i should always set the niat to be LillahiTaala. Let only and ONLY beautiful niat drive you through.
What ever is inside you, can be seen on the first page.
You are beautiful, if you are beautiful at heart.
errr.... which means....................yeah, i am not that beautiful cause maybe i have some grudge or maybe i did not let my guard down, moving on without the thought of reconcile peacefully, Allah, may He open my heart soon cause i STILL cant pull myself back on that. TETTTT again!kbai!

Oh! This morning, at the market, this one girl met this one lady while buying some eggs for her mom.
While waiting for the shopkeeper packing her tray of eggs, this lady came.
They both smiled at each other.
"Cantik!" the lady said.
The girl just nodded with a smile. Maybe she didnt really hear what the lady just said.
The lady smiled back, and asked the shopkeeper for her groceries.
Then she said again,
"Cantik! You manyak cantik! Ayoo... Melayu semua manyak cantik! Saya tak tipu oo! Saya tengok semua Melayu manyak cantik tau! Itu saya punya anak nanti dia balik Malaysia aaaa, saya mau kasi dia kawin sama perempuan Melayu!"
Then only the girl laughed and got what the lady was trying to tell her earlier.
"Eh tak ada lah aunty. You pun cantik lah. Melayu Cina India semua sama saja semua pun cantik maa"
The lady shook her finger and insist that Malay girls are beautiful.
"Saya cakap betui punya la amoi, Saya tengok Melayu semua manyak cantik ooo! Sebab ini dalam cantik, luar pun jadi cantik maa!" the lady said, with her hands showing the heart.
The girl smiled again and nodded , agreeing the lady's opinion.
"Ya la aunty, tapi bukan Melayu saja maa...Semua bangsa pun kalau itu dalam hati cantik, kita boleh tengok maa, automatik luar pun sama cantik juga kan!"and they both just laughed and bid farewell after they were done with their grocery shopping at the market.

True enough, no?
Point is, what is in YOU, makes you YOU.

Yang Sebenarnya Tidak Tahu Apa Point Entry Kali Ini,
Farah Diana.

Belajar Mengajar

Assalamualaikum yaw!

Alhamdulillah, just finished a short course last week, and am glad to be given the opportunity to meet lots of mind-like people; people who loves kids.
Even though deep inside i get frustrated when i evaluate myself in teaching those angels for the past five months, however, in a way it lifted me up more to improvise my skills onwards, inshaAllah.

Debar.
As usual,
Memang setiap hari debar bila nak mula sekolah.
Sebab bakal berdepan dengan bakal khalifah di masa depan, calon pemimpin bangsa dan negara, pemangkin masa depan agama dan bangsa.
Sepanjang kursus, aku semakin yakin dengan jalan yang aku dah pilih.
Biarlah orang nak kata apa,
Ye, ada je orang terdiam bila tanya aku kerja apa, tambah tambah kalau depa tau background studies aku.
Well, sorry honey, i appreciate you to respect my decisions as i dont think i ever bothered yours. ^_^

Setiap orang kan ada jalan cerita sendiri, embrace it.
I love doing what i am doing now.
I hope i can be strong enough to be able to stand still in this field, and share with the future kindy teachers how lucky we are to be the chosen ones.

Yes. I had my call since i joined a UPSR camp as an assistant for the key teachers last year.
There was this one boy who seem to struggle with his assignment. But i can feel he was willing to learn, but he seem to be a little taken aback or perhaps he didnt know how to ask or what to ask. I tried talking him into expressing what he wanted, but during that time, i have zero skill on persuading kids maybe. I felt such a big failure on myself for not being able to help that boy.
Since then, i secretly dream to become a teacher.
Towards the end of the year, my cousin called me asking if i want to teach in her new centre, since they are short of teachers, and for a start, i just shadow the principal and pick up the teaching skills then. I agreed. I was excited.
So there i was, and another "call" hit me after a two weeks (or so) teaching those angels.
"Teacher, you're awesome!"
When all i did was just play with them.
Meremang. Nak menitik airmata (tapi haruslah mek control ayu kannn....depan bebudak kena tak boleh nak drama queen sangat hahahaha)

Biarlah,
orang mungkin ada yang menyampah dengan pendirian aku yang nampak macam seasonal.
mungkin ada yang perlekeh jalan aku pilih ini,
tapi aku belajar satu benda, bahawasanya cita cita itu kadang kadang berubah seiring kematangan seseorang manusia.
Cehhh! Matang sangat lah kau tu, Paghah!~ HAHAHAHA
Biarlah.
Yang aku maklum, currently, inilah kebahagiaan aku (ehem. Disamping sokongan beberapa pihak yang dikasihi...hew hew hew).

Yang Sedang Terbang,
Farah Diana.

Mummy & Abah

Assalamualaikum.

Today, the after the second half for today's session, i seek help from Mdm Principal to help me teach the kids solat. Well, pardon me for not being able to master the skills of teaching solat the  proper way just yet. Sobs.
Memang, kita orang tua ni tahu solat tapi tak semua tahu cara nak ajar anak anak kecil solat.
In sha Allah, teacher Paghah dah belajar sikit sikit how to teach little angels how to solat.

But as i always said, being the kindy teacher, i learned much more than what i give them.
As for today, during the lesson, Mdm Principal cerita sedikit sebanyak tentang solat itself.
And after solat, about doa kepada ibu bapa.
Hati aku tersentuh.

"Kenapa kita kena doakan ibu bapa kita?
Sebab ibu bapa kita dah banyaaaak bersusah payah untuk kita.
Our mummy carried us for NINE months in her tummy, wherever she goes, she brings us along.
When we came into this world as a little baby, we dont know how to walk, how to talk, 
so mummy & daddy took care of us, feed us milk, made sure we are always clean & healthy, play with us, worry about us if we are sick, work everyday to buy us toys & books.
If mummy & daddy are sick, how are they going to work & take care of us?
Thaaat is why, we always have to doa for our mummy & daddy,
Ya Allah, sihatkan ibu dan ayah, panjangkanlah umur mereka, ampunkanlah dosa mereka"

Diam! Aku malas crop gambor ni! Besides that, i miss kak lin's glow. 

Lepas tentang solat, Mdm Principal cerita tentang Nabi Muhammad saw pulak.

Siapa ayah baginda. Siapa ibu baginda.

Peribadi Rasulullah itu yang sayaaaang semua orang walaupun tiada ayah & ibu.

Sekali lagi aku sebak.

"Kasihan Nabi Muhammad, baginda kecil kecil lagi ayah & ibu baginda dah meninggal. Cuba kalau mummy & daddy kita meninggal, sedih tak?"

Sebak tetiba. Teingat mummy abah kat rumah *ehem. dah tak paham paham lagik? ratu drama memang camtu ye dok?*

tapi cara penyampaian Mdm Principal sangat la deep tusuk jantung aku.

Dalam diam, aku rasa amazed on how she narrated the lesson. Ajar solat je, tapi the beauty of the connections yang pada aku selama ni aku tak berapa nampak cara nak reach the kids heart through the lessons.

Balik rumah pula, di kala sedang menatap pc sambung setelkan soalan soalan exam anak anak,

ter tengok pula video rakan share tentang appreciating our parents while they're alive.

DAH! Sapa pulak potong bawang sebelah aku ni? Shuh Shuh!!

Thank u, Mdm Principal for enlightening me.

Thank u mummy & abah, Farah loves the both of you so much!
Even though i always tease mummy in the mornings, even though i always laugh at abah's silly ways of babysitting his grandson, even though i did not practice architecture and do whatever according to my own mood, i always have the both of you in my heart.

May Allah always protect you, Keeps you safe in His blessings. Amiin

Yang Touching,

Farah Diana

Love notes

Assalamualaikum.

Today, the teacher of the other 5-year-old's class came knocking on my door.

"Good morning, teacher Farah! So sorry, but may i bother you for a short while?" - Teacher S.

"Oh good morning, teacher S, well sure, no problem? Anything i can lend my hands for you?" -yours truly.

"There's someone who really wanted to give this note he made for you. He has been wanting to give this to you since yesterday!" -Teacher S.

You see in the picture above on the right corner; the rainbow and he wrote "teacher Farah".

That was his note.

Being a drama queen, of course my heart blooms right away! 

He's the quiet & shy type, i was surprised he remembered me even though i just taught them the warm up dance for the sports day. 

Oh dear, these kids, be it the ones under my supervision or even other teacher's, always have ways to reach this drama queen's heart. How can i not LOVE my job?

Penat? Sumpah memang penat! Kadang kadang macam nak terbalik kepala hotak nak tercabut lutut siku semua sebab jadi macam octopus. Pantang tinggal sekejap anak anak ni, ada je lah seketul dua yang mengekor, tak pun baru dua langkah keluar sekejap nak ambil barang, nanti bunyi la seruan "TEACHER!!!"

But then again, at the end of the day, i find myself smiling, as soon as the kids leave the kindy, i'll start missing their laughter & smiles & stories & all. 

I hope i can do better as days go by. 

I hope these kids will grow into great khalifahs that will lead a better future.

Dear future husband, wherever you are, please let me continue this mission of mine;

helping the little angels on their first steps into becoming the bright future leaders. 

ps: tetiba pulok kau dear future husbeng bagai kannn! cheyyyy!

ye la.... kang kot bakal laki mek duduk luar kawasan jajahan mek ni ha, tak ke jenuh mek nak re-adjust career mek yang baru nak menapak ni ha? 

kahkahkah.

Yang Mudah Terhibur,

Farah Diana.

Sports Day; Beach Blast 2015!

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah, the sports day went super well yesterday!~ Yeayyy!
Maka, hari ni kita cuti uols! *icon lompat bintang. err...ada eh icon tu??*

After weeks of practicing the balancing, the sliding, the jumping dancing whatsoever,
finally on 10th of May 2015, the real day arrived.
Nervous tak payah cakap lah, first time kot sports day as a kindy teacher. ketaq lutut pulak dah dok handle props (ye Bo, cik Paghah ditugaskan dalam team yang handle the equipments. memang tak payah berangan la nak memutih recover dari pasca Perhentian itu hari. pfft!) Ke hulu ke hilir set up items, with the heat some more, pergh!

BUT!
Kepenatan tu semua sangat berbaloi!
Tengok muka anak anak semua happy and enjoying themselves, doing the best they could....precious. sangat. precious! Tambah pulak team of teachers and bosses yang semua sempoi, Masha Allah, besarnya nikmat yang Allah bagi kat aku! *icon nangis bawah tangga*
I love dancing with the kids.
I love to hear them laugh.
I love it when they come to me asking how to write or do their work.
On top of the sports day, the kindy arranged a surprise event for the kids' moms, well, mother's day kan! The kids made a card for their mom days before the event and present it with a flower to their moms after we finished all the sports items.
Ye.
Bobo, kau tak lupa kan betapa cik Paghah ni seorang ratu emosi? Masih ingat kan tahap drama cik Paghah kaaaan?!
Ye.
Terharu tengok my kids giving out their cards & flowers to their moms. Airmata hujung mata je alahai.
Ooooh. Tapi kena tahan oh! Kantoi drama queen pulak kalau dok merambu time tu wehhh!
>.<
Hahahaha!

Syukur Alhamdulillah, cuaca pun baik, parents pun sporting belaka.
Next event to look forward to: CONCERT!!!!
Yeeeeha!


Sekian,
Yang Selalu Emosi,
Farah Diana.

What time is it?

Assalamualaikum people

Wahlauuu.... propa sangat nak frequently update kann.
Percayalah, niat itu selalu ada, tetapi masa itu yang sering mencemburui kita, Bo.

Seperti yang aku bilang sebelum ini.
err...kalau macam rasa tak pernah aku sebut before this, kau pura pura je lah mengaku aku pernah sebut, penat ni woi!
Teaching these little angels has taught me much more than what i thought i have taught them.

They taught me true meaning & reward of being patient.
They taught me that every single thing really happens for a reason.
They taught me the true meaning of "thank you".
And the list goes.
Barangkali, sampai tahun depan belum tentu aku habis list kan semua pengajaran daripada pengalaman mengajar anak anak kecil itu. Walaupun baru nak menjangkau empat bulan aku bergelar teacher Paghah, masih banyak yang aku bikin aku terkial kial nak handle depa. Tapi yang nyata, depa lagi banyak mengajar aku about things in life, indirectly.

Okay. nak jadi cerita, anak anak aku ni bergabung dengan kelas lain sama umur untuk acara sukan; marching, dance/aerobic & sukaneka.
Agak tough jugak buat aku yang memang takde pengalaman langsung mengajar ni, apatah lagi menari macam kayu ni, nak mengajar kanak kanak menari.
Aku? Menari??
Dapat pulak anak anak pelbagai ragam kreatif dorang. Betul weh, dorang ni semua stok otak geliga, dan kuat berangan pun ye.
Kadang kadang aku kena pura2 bercakap dengan tiang lampu atau pokok untuk grab attention dorang. Class teacher the other class yg pengalaman berapa puluh tahun pun naik pening nak layan kekreatifan & keaktifan depa ni hahaha.
But of course, as a teacher, sabar tu kena letak paling depan. Pesanan mummy aku pegang kuat
"Level tadika, level anak2 yang kena banyak sabar, and be polite but firm, bukan garang. Kalau buat garang, sangat not healthy for their mental development"
Walaupun kadang2 teacher Paghah bertempik macam petir, tapi aku ngaku, tak mampu nak jadi garang sangat. (kalau marah budak, nanti lepas tu aku yang panik nk pujuk balik. pui!)
So we keep on practicing....err...well, teka la sapa yang kena paling beria melompat menari tetengah panas tu (kids practice under the shades okeh, teacher yang terpaksa berterik supaya nampak all the kids punya movements).
Well, i did some reading on how to grab their attention (thus the reason i talked to a tree the other day), and how to make them get what we taught them.
Keyword are: sabar. repeat. & puji.
For things they did correctly, tell them they did well.
A word as simple as "Good!" with a smile can really uplift their spirit and make them more eager to do better.
Alhamdulillah, as for today, after about three weeks practicing (dengan choreograph baru bebetul setel last Friday mwahaha), they did it very well!
Most importantly, they did well AND enjoyed it too! Syukuuuuur Alhamdulillah!
Cause i asked my class
"Children, thank you for today, im proud of you! You did very well! Was that fun?"
and i got a very loud YES from all of them!
^.^
Some time, do some high five with them, THEY LOVE it!!

Surprisingly, a girl (from the other class) came to me today after school, while waiting for her ride home.
"Thank you teacher!"
I was shocked. "Thank you for what, my dear?"
"For such a nice dance, teacher!"
"Is that so? Well, you're welcome, my dear! Thanks to you too, coz u did very well just now, didn't you?"
"i love it, teacher!"

Awww... sweet girl!
Walaupun time practice, she looked like she was somewhere else once in a while, but hey! She really did a good one, though.
Everyone did! yeayy!

In short, that is how i tackle kids.
Puji when they did good.
If they did wrong, sabar, jangan marah but correct them instead.
And smile. All the time.
If u teach them dancing, YOU dance together and show them how to enjoy the dance.

Baiklah. Teacher Paghah rasa nak tercabut kaki hari ni, i should get some rest now.
Walaupun hakikatnya menulis blog bukan la pakai kaki pun kan, tapi ....eh perlu pulak aku nak justify kan. Harusss!

Okay dear people, till then!
Toodles!

You're Awesome!

Assalamualaikum!

Struggle.
Every single day i had these butterflies in my tummy. Wondering will i be able to teach those little khalifahs?
Whether they get bored of my presentations?
Whether they look forward to learn new things at school every day?
Or whether this teacher is teaching things they already know well?

Yesterday, a girl from the class came to me when i was busy giving works to her friends.
"Teacher Farah..."
"Yes, Alveena?"
"Teacher, you're awesome!"
Terkedu sekejap. I thought i heard it wrong.
"Come again, sayang? What was it?"
"You're awesome, teacher Farah!"

Masha Allah, oh anak!
Setahu aku, nama je ada degree, tapi aku tak pernah tahu macam mana nak kenalkan dunia dan isi kandungannya kepada makhluk kecil yang suci, yang full of curiosity , like i was back then.
I know ABC, 123 & Alif Ba Ta, but how do i teach them to know those too?
Clueless. Jujurnya, this teacher memang agak blank.

But just with that simple words by a dear student, i felt like i really have to work harder for them.
Because the impact was just....speechless. Rasa nak terbang, rasa ringan dalam pada masa sama, rasa masih tak cukup effort dicurahkan untuk anak anak itu, puuuun mereka dah rasa awesome sangat.
Walaupun hakikatnya aku sedar, this teacher is very lacking of lots of things. still. Masih banyak yang teacher had to install inside otak teacher ni because this teacher was trained to design & build buildings but she refused to put her heart into it (or maybe she was too scared to handle it).
This teacher was lost in her path somehow.
But Alhamdulillah, Allah masih sayang agaknya. Diberi Nya cabaran baru.
It is as tough as other jobs i have done, sometimes i feel like it's even tougher.
But at the end of the day, ada satu rasa yang aku sendiri tak tahu nak khabarkan macam mana.

Tak. Aku tak rasa aku layak lagi terima "awesome!" dari sesiapa.
Mungkin takkan pernah.
Mungkin anak itu masih naif untuk menilai manusia yang lainnya,
But one thing for sure, i will try my best to deliver amanah baru ini.
Because we never know, how long we could hold on things in this world.
Ada mungkin aku tak bisa habiskan setahun penuh bersama anak anak itu.
Mungkin jugakah satu hari aku rasa lemau melayan kerenah mereka (so far, penat macam mana pun aku rasa hati aku all the time tenang melayan mereka. Alhamdulillah)?
Whatever it is, thank you Allah for giving me this opportunity. And thanks little angels, for teaching me the true meaning of life.
One day, you'll grow up into one fine lady & guy, maybe that day you might not remember who i was, but that's okay my dear sayangs. Even the thought of all of you that's going to shape the nation & ummah itself have made me very grateful. May Allah always protect all of you, in this world and the Hereafter. Amiin.

Learning to teach, teaching to learn

Assalamualaikum.

Ha. Dari dulu sampai sekarang, kau memang pegang kemas title ratu emosi tu kan?
Semalam, duduk sembang dengan Principal (oh. I've been keeping this low for about two months already, but hey, I am enjoying life now. So, here goes; am a kindy teacher now. Looking forward to be a good one though. Huuu. Masih rasa tak layak di panggil teacher lagi for now.)

"Farah, how are you feeling working here for almost two months already, Farah?" - P
"I am at some sort of peace, Teacher M*!" - F
"Really? Peace?" (looking sort of confused, add on background jeritan bebudak panggil Teacher Paghah masuk kelas balik -.-) -P
"Yes, Teacher M! Been struggling these few years, but i found peace even though i still struggle getting these kids' attention at class" - F
(Muka terkejut lagi) "Tell me about it!" - P
.....nak sembang lagi luah perasaan terbuku kononnya. Tapi seorang Wise Owls dah sampai ke pintu dan melalak: "Teacher Farah!! They dont want to share the colors!!"
Fine kids. Fine. Saja kan hangpa tak mau kasik chance teacher layan emosi sat! Its okay, sayangs, its okay, for all of you, teacher simpan emo tuh balik store and will be with you all the time, in sha Allah.

Penat? Oh memang! Dengan nak mengejar one special kid yang hyper (but Subahanallah, sangat bright, sangat cute toksah cakap lah) yang all over the school yang kadang kadang memang test patience to the top level and the other 10 (total kids in my class are 11), physically & mentally penat woi!
TAPI.
In the end of the day, ada satu kepuasan yang tak pernah aku dapat selama ni.
Like what i told the Principal, ketenangan.

Okay. I need to pen off now.
Online nak cari bahan kononnya, tapi sebab ...ehem... biasa lah, bila emosi beraksi gittew.... terdampar lah mek disini seketika.
In sha Allah, akan throw more words here in the future sharing my experience and journey.

p/s: Emo mode konon. sekali dapat satu call je, terus cair. okbai.