You're Awesome!

Assalamualaikum!

Struggle.
Every single day i had these butterflies in my tummy. Wondering will i be able to teach those little khalifahs?
Whether they get bored of my presentations?
Whether they look forward to learn new things at school every day?
Or whether this teacher is teaching things they already know well?

Yesterday, a girl from the class came to me when i was busy giving works to her friends.
"Teacher Farah..."
"Yes, Alveena?"
"Teacher, you're awesome!"
Terkedu sekejap. I thought i heard it wrong.
"Come again, sayang? What was it?"
"You're awesome, teacher Farah!"

Masha Allah, oh anak!
Setahu aku, nama je ada degree, tapi aku tak pernah tahu macam mana nak kenalkan dunia dan isi kandungannya kepada makhluk kecil yang suci, yang full of curiosity , like i was back then.
I know ABC, 123 & Alif Ba Ta, but how do i teach them to know those too?
Clueless. Jujurnya, this teacher memang agak blank.

But just with that simple words by a dear student, i felt like i really have to work harder for them.
Because the impact was just....speechless. Rasa nak terbang, rasa ringan dalam pada masa sama, rasa masih tak cukup effort dicurahkan untuk anak anak itu, puuuun mereka dah rasa awesome sangat.
Walaupun hakikatnya aku sedar, this teacher is very lacking of lots of things. still. Masih banyak yang teacher had to install inside otak teacher ni because this teacher was trained to design & build buildings but she refused to put her heart into it (or maybe she was too scared to handle it).
This teacher was lost in her path somehow.
But Alhamdulillah, Allah masih sayang agaknya. Diberi Nya cabaran baru.
It is as tough as other jobs i have done, sometimes i feel like it's even tougher.
But at the end of the day, ada satu rasa yang aku sendiri tak tahu nak khabarkan macam mana.

Tak. Aku tak rasa aku layak lagi terima "awesome!" dari sesiapa.
Mungkin takkan pernah.
Mungkin anak itu masih naif untuk menilai manusia yang lainnya,
But one thing for sure, i will try my best to deliver amanah baru ini.
Because we never know, how long we could hold on things in this world.
Ada mungkin aku tak bisa habiskan setahun penuh bersama anak anak itu.
Mungkin jugakah satu hari aku rasa lemau melayan kerenah mereka (so far, penat macam mana pun aku rasa hati aku all the time tenang melayan mereka. Alhamdulillah)?
Whatever it is, thank you Allah for giving me this opportunity. And thanks little angels, for teaching me the true meaning of life.
One day, you'll grow up into one fine lady & guy, maybe that day you might not remember who i was, but that's okay my dear sayangs. Even the thought of all of you that's going to shape the nation & ummah itself have made me very grateful. May Allah always protect all of you, in this world and the Hereafter. Amiin.