Wednesday, March 04, 2009

5am

it's 5 in the morning, still in the studio trying to figure out the solution. i think too much. oh, perhaps, im being too careful. output? none. that's wat i've been stressing out so badly these few days. i wanted this semester to be the best,but... i have doubts. damn. i hate it when i become pessimist. i used to be very optimistic. i guess, im very different on that if compared from 'me' in those high-school years and 'me' in these uni years.

i miss mummy so much! (thanks to stress! it makes me wanna go home so badly, tho i eventually go back on weekends...) miss abah... nana.....anep... kaklin....MAKTOk....oh, i miss menyoal maktok macam2 soklan yang tak relevan. nyanyi2 dengan maktok! i miss arwah siti............so suddenly.... am i a bad grandchild to her? T.Ti hate regrets. full-stop on this.



this semester, i noticed, i spent money too fast. to say i enjoy too much, i dont really think so. i dont even by ANY souvenir for MYSELF during recent trip, yet money flows like water.ish. wat have i done? well, yes i do spent a few on leisure... movies... karoke (but during trip hari tu je, di kl tak pun lagi...) on food maybe? aihhhh.........

oh my. i shud be doing my works now. but loneliness is killing me, man! in my studio, only iman and me left menghuni this studio today. and due to that 'kesunyian', termuncullah entry emo neh. ngok!!


p/s: i miss those days of sengalism with nurul, enul,and others during first year.
korang ingat tak kenduri aiskrim kita?
korang ingat tak badminton OKU kerusi studio kita?
korang ingat tak studio 1fm @ makcik asyadu kita?
korang ingat lagi tak cover album putrajaya kita?
korang ingat tak konvoi sahur kita?
korang ingat tak betapa korang gelakkan aku masa nasi goreng pattaya "special" aku tu?
korang ingat tak 'tangisan' and 'gadoh' kita sampai ada orang tu send msg kat frenster bagai?
korang ingat tak simbahan air masa sambut birthday salah sorang (eh...dua orang masa tu) drp kita?


aku ingat sangat...setiap satu dengan jelas. aku rindu korang! semoga dalam lindunganNya selalu, insyaAllah........

16 comments:

Adian said...

aku xpandailah nak komen tentang urusan akademik org lain... siapalah daku... ahahha... maybe utk final project ni ko leh try wat timetable kot, "i dunno, u know?" (quote oleh dot3) go farah go!

hmm about the last part tu, i hope u're not "eaten" by those memories... xleh diselubungi kenangan2 silam. cewah. haha dulu pun aku xdpt bayangkan duk kolej sorang2 tanpa ada bilik-bilik mereka yg bole dikunjungi di aras atas dan bawah ketika bosan. dan juga peneman turun fac malam2 untuk download. tp alhamdulillah i manage to look it through a more positive perspective.

kita masih ada sengalan2 4th year.
dan sengalan2 RA+master.
dan sengalan2 budak studio kita.

honestly aku lagi lapang skrg.

(ayoo apalah yang aku duk merapu arini, nak pindah jadi entry blog sendiri la camni!)

cheer!

(btw, sape nak tau farah kan sekarang jadi contributor untuk blog gosip bertajuk.... haha carik sendiri)

fara-D said...

tuh la... aku pun sbenanye da byk kali wat timetable tapi tak berjaya. akan try lagik wat timetable. isk isk....thanks 4 the suggestion tho!!

huuu....tuh la, tp sbb time dok sensorang tuh mai segala anasir luar poyo2 emo tuh!
and ye btol....aku agree, skang lebih lapang, cuma rindukan suasana havoc masa dedolu je...tp skang pun riuh jugak! haha!

hoi hoi. aku berjaya remove myself from that blog ye...tak berminat, sbb sendiri nye blog pun tak terurus nak contribute blog len kan.heee...

no offense to peng-create blog itu ye.... tak dapek den nak nolong sbb nak concentrate blog sendiri ajo! heheh...

Anonymous said...

sy tau..itu blog gossipgirlandguy kan?
tah sape punye la kan..hihi..
masih menjadi misteri nusantara!

Anonymous said...

fail 2 plan is plan 2 fail, so...
GO GO FARAH!!!

fara-D said...

anon: ye btol! stuju! fail to plan is plan to fail!! harus improve on that!! agogo!! hoyeah!

er....jap...sape kah ini? haha!

Adian said...

haha... ni tah2 pemilik blog tu sebenarnya kan kan kan. ngaku cepat! hahaha

fara-D said...

heh! ada kah kedua2 anonymous org yang sama?

haha...ala adian...ko nak sentap pehal? sbb pemilik blog tersebut tak invite ko kah?

Anonymous said...

HAHAHA...mcm mana boleh dia tak invite adian? tak patut..

Anonymous said...

kak fara!go go go!!
final sem ni,be happy ok..cube minat dengan keje sndiri,then kita akan happy dengannya,ok??!!

semoga bjaya dengan cemerlang..(macam ayat dlm report card sekolah pulak..)
hahah

fara-D said...

adik comel
baik! terima kasih atas ayat2 report card itu! mari bersama2 meyakinkan diri dengan kerja masing2! ayuh!

Adian said...

elo... aku diinvite ok...

Adian said...

hahaha pnas pun ada blog kah? wah maju. maju. fareez maju.

Anonymous said...

farah,
1st year memories kita is the best memories ever. Semua yang kita pernah buat, tak pernah sikit pon lupa. Best sangat kan? Aaaaaaaa. Sebak nyaaaa

fara-D said...

FARA-D MISSES CHIKA TOO!

huuu...kan kan kan.... best kan...huuu...especially masa takde kete tu kan,....takpe.... tunggu aku kat sana...nnt i sampai sana!

tett!! hehe...tak salah verangans kan?! :D

Anonymous said...

sy wat blog sebab nk tgk cite jepun.wahaha.tepaksa buat.....uuuu
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Anonymous said...

ok..aku tersentuh..kenangan memang utk dikenang.