Assalamualaikum darlas!
Oh my dear. been two weeks on medical leave. Down with chicken pox uols!
Ha! Ye, dah tua bangka ni baru sibuk nak kena chicken pox. Sedih betul. Dah la bulan depan ada big event. Aduhai. Harapnya parut parut ni boleh recover by then, in sha Allah!
Last week agak kritikal, all i could do was lie down and sleep all day. Jemu bak hang! Cemuih orang kata! But what to do, seriously tak ada tenaga langsung nak buat apa. To top it of, nak makan pun tak lalu, dan sukar sebab ada gusi bengkak and ulser juga. Hambik, nak sangat diet nak kuruih konon........ dropped 4kgs in a week. T____T . jap. aku tatau nak happy ke nak sedih dah turun berat sbb turun kerana sakit. Aduih. Takpe lah, anggap kick start untuk project130 nanti ecehhh!
Baiklah, minggu depan kena start giatkan latihan utk project130.
Ok. Aku tatau apa motif aku click "New Post" kat blog nih. Satu satunya yang aku rasa sekarang ni adalah aku nak kembali ke sekolah sebab I MISS MY WISE OWLS SO MUCH!!!! T____T
Kids, be good! Teacher Farah will be back soon, okay! Hugs & Kisses, darlings!!
Yang Rindu Anak Anak,
Farah Diana.
Thursday, August 13, 2015
Sunday, July 26, 2015
Cantik!
Assalamualaikum.
Oh Alhamdulillah, segala gundah gulana drama hari raya sudah pun kembali tenang.
Eceh!
Eh eh eh! Ada geng 'blogger' zaman super rajin update blog tetiba melempar komen pulak dah. Dasar stalker tegar kau kannnn Adian! (tengok! kan aku dah link kan kau muahahahaha!)
Maka, kena cover line balik melempar bicara kat sini ye sebab ada jugak manusia dok singgah sekali sekala. Uhuk!
Okay.
Few weeks ago, i had a little breakdown which lead me back to reality.
I am not really good teaching kids to read.
It's so hard! I just havent got any clue HOW!
But Alhamdulillah, just recently seniors and bosses had given some guide on how to.
I've met some people who sees preschool teachers like "Blerghh! Ajar budak je!"
Well, It's okay. Maybe i myself had similar thoughts on other professions previously, which is i rarely do because i know everyone has their own battle in their field (except for those cari pasal tabur janji manis lepas tu dok dendiam assume aku jauhkan diri segala puii! TETTT!).
Try having at least 5 kids of the same age with 5 different characters, with unpredictable mood swings. HAHAHA! dont get me wrong, i am really enjoying having them as part of my life, as if they're really my own little angels. I dont mind the sweat, at least, maybe at least, doing this will be my share in the Akhirat, in sha Allah.
I love playing with them.
I love hearing them shout my name; "Teacher Farah!", running after me first thing in the morning when i arrive at school, giving me a hug.
I love it when i leave saying goodbye to them, some will return my greet with "Goodbye teacher Farah! I love you!"
I love teasing them too once in a while >.<
I love playing along during breaks where they pretend to be mommies and babies, baking cookies or pretend to dress up for a trip to Legoland!
Allah, when i receive a text in the morning saying "Salam teacher, XXX will not be going to school today, she/he's down with fever", it breaks my heart. But of course i have to pull myself back together cause the others need me too for that 4 hours at school, dont they? All i can do is to pray for their speedy recovery.
Lately, day by day, when the kids are getting more comfortable with teacher Paghah (Alhamdulillah!), they became more active and creative, where the teacher herself have to keep up with & keep updated with their behavior, not to let them go astray...
Sometimes, they do drive me up the walls! No joke, man! There are days when i felt like second thoughts, but Alhamdulillah, end of the day, i had to, and i love to, or willing to, pull myself back together. After all, they are KIDS, the need us to guide them through, dont they?
Which i always remind myself, whatever work i do, or job i have, or career i am on, i should always set the niat to be LillahiTaala. Let only and ONLY beautiful niat drive you through.
What ever is inside you, can be seen on the first page.
You are beautiful, if you are beautiful at heart.
errr.... which means....................yeah, i am not that beautiful cause maybe i have some grudge or maybe i did not let my guard down, moving on without the thought of reconcile peacefully, Allah, may He open my heart soon cause i STILL cant pull myself back on that. TETTTT again!kbai!
Oh! This morning, at the market, this one girl met this one lady while buying some eggs for her mom.
While waiting for the shopkeeper packing her tray of eggs, this lady came.
They both smiled at each other.
"Cantik!" the lady said.
The girl just nodded with a smile. Maybe she didnt really hear what the lady just said.
The lady smiled back, and asked the shopkeeper for her groceries.
Then she said again,
"Cantik! You manyak cantik! Ayoo... Melayu semua manyak cantik! Saya tak tipu oo! Saya tengok semua Melayu manyak cantik tau! Itu saya punya anak nanti dia balik Malaysia aaaa, saya mau kasi dia kawin sama perempuan Melayu!"
Then only the girl laughed and got what the lady was trying to tell her earlier.
"Eh tak ada lah aunty. You pun cantik lah. Melayu Cina India semua sama saja semua pun cantik maa"
The lady shook her finger and insist that Malay girls are beautiful.
"Saya cakap betui punya la amoi, Saya tengok Melayu semua manyak cantik ooo! Sebab ini dalam cantik, luar pun jadi cantik maa!" the lady said, with her hands showing the heart.
The girl smiled again and nodded , agreeing the lady's opinion.
"Ya la aunty, tapi bukan Melayu saja maa...Semua bangsa pun kalau itu dalam hati cantik, kita boleh tengok maa, automatik luar pun sama cantik juga kan!"and they both just laughed and bid farewell after they were done with their grocery shopping at the market.
True enough, no?
Point is, what is in YOU, makes you YOU.
Yang Sebenarnya Tidak Tahu Apa Point Entry Kali Ini,
Farah Diana.
Oh Alhamdulillah, segala gundah gulana drama hari raya sudah pun kembali tenang.
Eceh!
Eh eh eh! Ada geng 'blogger' zaman super rajin update blog tetiba melempar komen pulak dah. Dasar stalker tegar kau kannnn Adian! (tengok! kan aku dah link kan kau muahahahaha!)
Maka, kena cover line balik melempar bicara kat sini ye sebab ada jugak manusia dok singgah sekali sekala. Uhuk!
Okay.
Few weeks ago, i had a little breakdown which lead me back to reality.
I am not really good teaching kids to read.
It's so hard! I just havent got any clue HOW!
But Alhamdulillah, just recently seniors and bosses had given some guide on how to.
I've met some people who sees preschool teachers like "Blerghh! Ajar budak je!"
Well, It's okay. Maybe i myself had similar thoughts on other professions previously, which is i rarely do because i know everyone has their own battle in their field (except for those cari pasal tabur janji manis lepas tu dok dendiam assume aku jauhkan diri segala puii! TETTT!).
Try having at least 5 kids of the same age with 5 different characters, with unpredictable mood swings. HAHAHA! dont get me wrong, i am really enjoying having them as part of my life, as if they're really my own little angels. I dont mind the sweat, at least, maybe at least, doing this will be my share in the Akhirat, in sha Allah.
I love playing with them.
I love hearing them shout my name; "Teacher Farah!", running after me first thing in the morning when i arrive at school, giving me a hug.
I love it when i leave saying goodbye to them, some will return my greet with "Goodbye teacher Farah! I love you!"
I love teasing them too once in a while >.<
I love playing along during breaks where they pretend to be mommies and babies, baking cookies or pretend to dress up for a trip to Legoland!
Allah, when i receive a text in the morning saying "Salam teacher, XXX will not be going to school today, she/he's down with fever", it breaks my heart. But of course i have to pull myself back together cause the others need me too for that 4 hours at school, dont they? All i can do is to pray for their speedy recovery.
Lately, day by day, when the kids are getting more comfortable with teacher Paghah (Alhamdulillah!), they became more active and creative, where the teacher herself have to keep up with & keep updated with their behavior, not to let them go astray...
Sometimes, they do drive me up the walls! No joke, man! There are days when i felt like second thoughts, but Alhamdulillah, end of the day, i had to, and i love to, or willing to, pull myself back together. After all, they are KIDS, the need us to guide them through, dont they?
Which i always remind myself, whatever work i do, or job i have, or career i am on, i should always set the niat to be LillahiTaala. Let only and ONLY beautiful niat drive you through.
What ever is inside you, can be seen on the first page.
You are beautiful, if you are beautiful at heart.
errr.... which means....................yeah, i am not that beautiful cause maybe i have some grudge or maybe i did not let my guard down, moving on without the thought of reconcile peacefully, Allah, may He open my heart soon cause i STILL cant pull myself back on that. TETTTT again!kbai!
Oh! This morning, at the market, this one girl met this one lady while buying some eggs for her mom.
While waiting for the shopkeeper packing her tray of eggs, this lady came.
They both smiled at each other.
"Cantik!" the lady said.
The girl just nodded with a smile. Maybe she didnt really hear what the lady just said.
The lady smiled back, and asked the shopkeeper for her groceries.
Then she said again,
"Cantik! You manyak cantik! Ayoo... Melayu semua manyak cantik! Saya tak tipu oo! Saya tengok semua Melayu manyak cantik tau! Itu saya punya anak nanti dia balik Malaysia aaaa, saya mau kasi dia kawin sama perempuan Melayu!"
Then only the girl laughed and got what the lady was trying to tell her earlier.
"Eh tak ada lah aunty. You pun cantik lah. Melayu Cina India semua sama saja semua pun cantik maa"
The lady shook her finger and insist that Malay girls are beautiful.
"Saya cakap betui punya la amoi, Saya tengok Melayu semua manyak cantik ooo! Sebab ini dalam cantik, luar pun jadi cantik maa!" the lady said, with her hands showing the heart.
The girl smiled again and nodded , agreeing the lady's opinion.
"Ya la aunty, tapi bukan Melayu saja maa...Semua bangsa pun kalau itu dalam hati cantik, kita boleh tengok maa, automatik luar pun sama cantik juga kan!"and they both just laughed and bid farewell after they were done with their grocery shopping at the market.
True enough, no?
Point is, what is in YOU, makes you YOU.
Yang Sebenarnya Tidak Tahu Apa Point Entry Kali Ini,
Farah Diana.
Saturday, July 18, 2015
Menelan Pasir
Assalamualaikum
Selamat Hari Raya semua!
Am enjoying the raya is it what i am told to do so after a month of fasting.
Luaran,
Hanya gelak tawa, senyum sedaya dimaniskan,
Hakikatnya,
Sedang memendam rasa.
Rasa risau
Takut
Sedih pun ada sikit.
Yang mana dikumpul dan disimpul menjadi sakit.
Sudah tak ketahuan kemana haluan nak diadudomba
Tak tahu dimana mahu diluah rasa.
Aku begini, hanya berniat untuk menjadi insan yang Allah redha
Ku tahan diri kerna kita tiada sebarang ikatan
Kalau diturut hati, barangkali hati orang tua tersentuh
Tapi
Aku sampai kini taktahu hati sana
Yang aku tahu hati sini saban hari memujuk diri
Sebarang usaha aku, tidak akan aku biarkan hati sana tahu
Sebab itu ikhtiar aku, mengirimkan sedaya kudrat melalui Sang Pencipta
Kerna aku percaya, Dia Lebih Tahu
Kerna hanya Dia tempat aku bergantung sehingga nyawaku di panggil kembali
Ya Allah,
Apa sekalipun yang mendatang
Aku berharap Kau bantulah aku menjaga hati ini
Kerna aku bukan sang nujum, yang mampu menebak isi hati sana
Aku hanya mampu cuba menjaga hubungan aku dan Kau agar kelak apa pun yang mendatang,
Hati ini tak seremuk kehilangan suatu masa dahulu
Yang Pasrah Menelan Pasir,
Farah Diana
Selamat Hari Raya semua!
Am enjoying the raya is it what i am told to do so after a month of fasting.
Luaran,
Hanya gelak tawa, senyum sedaya dimaniskan,
Hakikatnya,
Sedang memendam rasa.
Rasa risau
Takut
Sedih pun ada sikit.
Yang mana dikumpul dan disimpul menjadi sakit.
Sudah tak ketahuan kemana haluan nak diadudomba
Tak tahu dimana mahu diluah rasa.
Aku begini, hanya berniat untuk menjadi insan yang Allah redha
Ku tahan diri kerna kita tiada sebarang ikatan
Kalau diturut hati, barangkali hati orang tua tersentuh
Tapi
Aku sampai kini taktahu hati sana
Yang aku tahu hati sini saban hari memujuk diri
Sebarang usaha aku, tidak akan aku biarkan hati sana tahu
Sebab itu ikhtiar aku, mengirimkan sedaya kudrat melalui Sang Pencipta
Kerna aku percaya, Dia Lebih Tahu
Kerna hanya Dia tempat aku bergantung sehingga nyawaku di panggil kembali
Ya Allah,
Apa sekalipun yang mendatang
Aku berharap Kau bantulah aku menjaga hati ini
Kerna aku bukan sang nujum, yang mampu menebak isi hati sana
Aku hanya mampu cuba menjaga hubungan aku dan Kau agar kelak apa pun yang mendatang,
Hati ini tak seremuk kehilangan suatu masa dahulu
Yang Pasrah Menelan Pasir,
Farah Diana
Thursday, June 11, 2015
#Projek130
Sedih tengok ini gambar woi, Kasut favorite penuh sentimental ini dirembat penyangak yang pecah kereta mek last year. Tenanglah kau bersama tuan baru, ye darling. Sobs!
Assalamualaikum.
Kan kan kannnnn aku dah bilang, tangan ni gatal click kat "New Post" dikala ketika tengah penuh tasks nak di selesaikan segera. Aduhai.
Baik baik baik!
Janji post ni a very short one.
Dengan ini, cik Paghah mengumumkan beliau baru sahaja berpakat dengan geng gegurls kesayangan melancarkan #Projek130
Apatuuu?!
Nak kembali ke kegigihan setahun dua yang lampau dimana tetiap pagi rajin training untuk 10km.
"Zaman gelap" telah sedikit sebanyak melunturkan perjalanan dalam arena long distance running ini.
Tak mengapalah, biarkan zaman gelap tu kekal sebagai masa silam *nampak tak betapa impak kuat zaman ITU, sampai banyak kali ayat bitter keluar. Trying to move on. Harap maklum. Kepada yang berkenaan, GET LOST!*
Dengan beraninya aku melantik coach si kecik hardcore hahahahha! Matila mek kena buli kaw kaw pasni! AAAA!
In sha Allah, impian nak run 10km without walk-intervals mahu dicapai ketika SCKLM tahun ni.
Ooooooh debor la pulak.
Taak taaaaak! Aku tak kuat lari. Mental aku pun selalu tak kuat, end up 10km tu banyak lenggang kangkung rather than run sangat.
Menilai balik record2 masa berjinak jinak dengan event running, macam pernah je timing less than 2 hours for 10km. *ni kalau hardcore runners tengok aku bangga habis 2hrs 10km sure kaw kaw digelakkan nya...ye la, 2hrs tu orang boleh habis HALF MARATHON kot!! T____T *
Makanya, akan ku cuba dapatkan balik, or improve rekod personal kepada 1 jam setengah.
Bila target aku masuk Half Marathon??
Unfortunately, cita cita aku hanya sekadar 10km.
Jangan harapkan aku nak ketagih sampai Half Marathon sebab ....ok banyak faktor peribadi.
Tak larat nak list kan kahkahkah.
In Sha Allah. Amiin! ^_^
Yang Sedang Berkobar (dan istiqomah hendaknya),
Farah Diana.
Monday, June 08, 2015
Belajar Mengajar
Assalamualaikum yaw!
Alhamdulillah, just finished a short course last week, and am glad to be given the opportunity to meet lots of mind-like people; people who loves kids.
Even though deep inside i get frustrated when i evaluate myself in teaching those angels for the past five months, however, in a way it lifted me up more to improvise my skills onwards, inshaAllah.
Debar.
As usual,
Memang setiap hari debar bila nak mula sekolah.
Sebab bakal berdepan dengan bakal khalifah di masa depan, calon pemimpin bangsa dan negara, pemangkin masa depan agama dan bangsa.
Sepanjang kursus, aku semakin yakin dengan jalan yang aku dah pilih.
Biarlah orang nak kata apa,
Ye, ada je orang terdiam bila tanya aku kerja apa, tambah tambah kalau depa tau background studies aku.
Well, sorry honey, i appreciate you to respect my decisions as i dont think i ever bothered yours. ^_^
Setiap orang kan ada jalan cerita sendiri, embrace it.
I love doing what i am doing now.
I hope i can be strong enough to be able to stand still in this field, and share with the future kindy teachers how lucky we are to be the chosen ones.
Yes. I had my call since i joined a UPSR camp as an assistant for the key teachers last year.
There was this one boy who seem to struggle with his assignment. But i can feel he was willing to learn, but he seem to be a little taken aback or perhaps he didnt know how to ask or what to ask. I tried talking him into expressing what he wanted, but during that time, i have zero skill on persuading kids maybe. I felt such a big failure on myself for not being able to help that boy.
Since then, i secretly dream to become a teacher.
Towards the end of the year, my cousin called me asking if i want to teach in her new centre, since they are short of teachers, and for a start, i just shadow the principal and pick up the teaching skills then. I agreed. I was excited.
So there i was, and another "call" hit me after a two weeks (or so) teaching those angels.
"Teacher, you're awesome!"
When all i did was just play with them.
Meremang. Nak menitik airmata (tapi haruslah mek control ayu kannn....depan bebudak kena tak boleh nak drama queen sangat hahahaha)
Biarlah,
orang mungkin ada yang menyampah dengan pendirian aku yang nampak macam seasonal.
mungkin ada yang perlekeh jalan aku pilih ini,
tapi aku belajar satu benda, bahawasanya cita cita itu kadang kadang berubah seiring kematangan seseorang manusia.
Cehhh! Matang sangat lah kau tu, Paghah!~ HAHAHAHA
Biarlah.
Yang aku maklum, currently, inilah kebahagiaan aku (ehem. Disamping sokongan beberapa pihak yang dikasihi...hew hew hew).
Yang Sedang Terbang,
Farah Diana.
Alhamdulillah, just finished a short course last week, and am glad to be given the opportunity to meet lots of mind-like people; people who loves kids.
Even though deep inside i get frustrated when i evaluate myself in teaching those angels for the past five months, however, in a way it lifted me up more to improvise my skills onwards, inshaAllah.
Debar.
As usual,
Memang setiap hari debar bila nak mula sekolah.
Sebab bakal berdepan dengan bakal khalifah di masa depan, calon pemimpin bangsa dan negara, pemangkin masa depan agama dan bangsa.
Sepanjang kursus, aku semakin yakin dengan jalan yang aku dah pilih.
Biarlah orang nak kata apa,
Ye, ada je orang terdiam bila tanya aku kerja apa, tambah tambah kalau depa tau background studies aku.
Well, sorry honey, i appreciate you to respect my decisions as i dont think i ever bothered yours. ^_^
Setiap orang kan ada jalan cerita sendiri, embrace it.
I love doing what i am doing now.
I hope i can be strong enough to be able to stand still in this field, and share with the future kindy teachers how lucky we are to be the chosen ones.
Yes. I had my call since i joined a UPSR camp as an assistant for the key teachers last year.
There was this one boy who seem to struggle with his assignment. But i can feel he was willing to learn, but he seem to be a little taken aback or perhaps he didnt know how to ask or what to ask. I tried talking him into expressing what he wanted, but during that time, i have zero skill on persuading kids maybe. I felt such a big failure on myself for not being able to help that boy.
Since then, i secretly dream to become a teacher.
Towards the end of the year, my cousin called me asking if i want to teach in her new centre, since they are short of teachers, and for a start, i just shadow the principal and pick up the teaching skills then. I agreed. I was excited.
So there i was, and another "call" hit me after a two weeks (or so) teaching those angels.
"Teacher, you're awesome!"
When all i did was just play with them.
Meremang. Nak menitik airmata (tapi haruslah mek control ayu kannn....depan bebudak kena tak boleh nak drama queen sangat hahahaha)
Biarlah,
orang mungkin ada yang menyampah dengan pendirian aku yang nampak macam seasonal.
mungkin ada yang perlekeh jalan aku pilih ini,
tapi aku belajar satu benda, bahawasanya cita cita itu kadang kadang berubah seiring kematangan seseorang manusia.
Cehhh! Matang sangat lah kau tu, Paghah!~ HAHAHAHA
Biarlah.
Yang aku maklum, currently, inilah kebahagiaan aku (ehem. Disamping sokongan beberapa pihak yang dikasihi...hew hew hew).
Yang Sedang Terbang,
Farah Diana.
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