STRESS!

fara d tak penah putus asa! no! tp skang? putus asa? TAK! ALLAH MURKA PADA MEREKA YG MUDAH PUTUS ASA!

balik umah adalah terapi paling bahgia! aku lupa sume keje! aku lupa sume stress! aku bahgia!!! bahgia dan ....dan terseksa! sampai kan kalo rakan2 silap msg ayat pon aku cpt kecik ati nak majuk! gila kan?

cda: .... maybe course korg mencabar dan buat korg jadi mereng ek.
(sms dr cda bila aku mengadu domba psl stress final projek yg mbuatkan ayat sms aku sebelum ni berbaur kata2 merajuk)\
fara-d: silap tu cda...setiap course ada cabaran tersendiri. cuma beza ngan course kitorg ni, bkn wat kitorg mereng, kitorg yg mereng je buat course ni....

sapa setuju ngan aku? angkat tangan!! *tak setuju?? dipersilakan berambus...wa tak perlu lu kat sini! sekian*

dah nak masuk tiga tahun... tiga tahun tu la i've pushed myself to stay calm and think positive. ada sorg adik ni (studio aku ler...) byk kali sms aku mintak kata2 semangat

adik: akak! cu0ks!! *** rasa da tak mampu wat da!!!
fara-d: *** takkan bleh siapkan kalo *** kata *** tak mampu siapkan! caiyok2! kite usaha sama2!


sedangkan hakikatnya??????
aku da penah suarakan kat mummy...
mummy...farah nak lari masok line advertising lah mummy! masok ID ke... susahnyaaaa architecture mi!!
kenapa?
ntah...kwn2 farah sume nampak ala2 tak sanggup sambung line ni.... berat! siap ada sorg kat uitm tu....fail apa ntah, patah hati tros masok course Tourism.
apa yg susah nye sampai patah hati ni.....
ye la...archi...not just designing building... kena consider the surrounding... parking nye la... kalo site sempit? naya... kalo site besa pun naya gak.... nak kena sorok itu ini... nak kena limit itu ini...undang2 bagai lagik....susah mi! nak kena pk segala macam services dia nak campak mana....
memang la...semua dalam life ni kita kena relate ngan everything. mummy keje inventory (erk... logistic @inventory...aku pon tak engat! hiks! -farah) dlu pon camtu gak. we have to predict every single action taken, how it will effect the environment, how it will effect the people, community, orang2 atasan plak camne, effect sales dia camne, production mcm mana.... silap hitung....nnt ada je yg merana!

aku?terdiam.... betul cakap mummy. hidup bukannya mudah...nak mati, lagik la susah dan menyusahkan! aku rasa cam naaaaak sangat lari masok line ID , Lanscape or advertising. tapi.... kesian mummy abah... they didnt say it but since im in ukm in archi, they seem like they're happy that one of their kids is going to be an architect.... (atau perasaan aku je? mummy and abah tak pernah paksa anak2 dia nak jadi apa.... kan! yes, dis is my stupid feelings! damn! go away!!


aku rs stress sangat! sampai makan pun da tak terkawal lagik.... jd jgn bising ckp aku makin gem ker apaker bila anda melihat saya!aku salu tgk org itu ini mcm tak cukup tough jadi arkitek sedangkan aku?? aku sendiri kurang kemampuan yg aku komen2 bagai tu... banyak lagik skill yg aku takde...aku cuba polish skill2 itu... but sumhow, im lack of confidence... im lack of courage to explore new things.... Alhamdulillah....aku punya rakan2 yg tak jemu bantu aku.... tp ntah... perasaan aku ni gedik sangat, salu je rasa im walking alone! tambah2...time aku masok entry "kerja sia-sia" tuh! yg tu mmg di update dalam emosi paling teruk dalam sejarah blogging aku! felt like........ no one's around... and no one's bothered to care. (when actually there are ppl around...thnks to those ppl...) even..... naa....*shhh!*

apa buat aku ckp aku mcm da putus asa dlm ketaksedaran aku? sbb aku da tak mampu force myself to work it ALL-OUT! aku kerja sambil lewa! erk...takde la sambil lewa ... tapi cam tak cukup keras progress dia........

deep inside.... otak cacat aku ni da stat memberontak tamau siapkan kerja!



no farah no! ni kerja gila! cepat abiskan kerja ko tuH!!! cepat berambus dari UKM and...and ... do watever u wished to! no more extension! lg extend, lagi gila ko nnt, fara-d!!! gogogo!!!

kerja sia-sia

please....where's everyone when i really need one!!!!!?! mana??? mana???????

shit! back to the kerja sia-sia!!!!


p/s: seriously wants to curse out and throw furnitures to the wall! still capable of holding the angst. just dont test me. (note: entry ini berbaur kemarahan tahap maksima. so, tak perlukan apa2 komen sarcastic atau simpati. LEAVE ME ALONE!!)

ting tong!

laju plak tenet maxis hari nih!

wuuu...mak ting tong weh!!cuak cuak!!






kembali bekerja!

oLa. saLam….

Hmmm…bercuti satu sem daripada subjek design. Wat aku lupa macam mana rasa nye wat keje straight dari pagi ke pagi. Oh my my…. Aku seakan dah ilang keupayaan utk stay working as hell cam dlu. Resultnye? Of coz la kojo tak siap!wululu…. but then again, It wasn’t as stressful as it was before. Hmmmm…I wonder y… maybe the ‘break’ has taught me to be more relaxed and calm during these kind of situation; the critical period. Wuuuh! Heh. Of coz tdo aku sentiasa cukup. Lantak la org len nak sengkang mata wat keje ke apa, im doin it my way. Kalo tak siap, aku tanggung akibatnye sendiri, takda org pun yg akan ter-efek kan? Kalo aku siap pon, still no one’s affected kankankan?!!

Haha...see...everyone’s got their own way of working hard. So, be it.

Okies dokies. Off back to work! Ting tong!

p/s: aku still nak promote Stup Up2: the Streets. SANGAT best! Kenkawan aku yg baru g tgk pun da admit it was a blast! They even don’t mind if they have to want to watch over again and again at the cinema…see see SEE!!! I was right kan, that movie was splendid…still is!!yeah!

err… p/s:p/s(?!): hehe….oh yes, officially aku announce, tho aku tak banyak contribute kpd kolej kediaman terchenta aku tu, tp ak masih ada HAK sebagai pengguna utk bersuara. KOLEJ PENDETA ZABA UKM = DISASTER! They suck big time, man!! Seriously! …and big MONEY too!! It’s time for someone to make a move. Anyone’s with me?

(kes dinner tu hanya pencetus, tatau la org lain sedar atau tak, tp kolej tuh da banyak menyusahkan ramai org. well, satu2 nya KEBAIKAN yg ada hanyalah ruang tidur buat mahasiswa2 ukm, selain itu, they’re just bullshit yg menyemak ruang udara kat bumi ni. Sekian. Aku mungkin diam, tp diam2 aku tak bermakna aku suka apa jenis rubbish yang mereka campak kat aku. Wait and see…….

Step Up2:the StreeTs

wo! kojo banyak. sok kena tunjuk elevations (1:100 scale) and of coz la the plans. owh, btw, sem ni project MeGa (nak sebot final, pas project ni ada gak projek sambungan nye... ID...so.... MeGa it is...hehe! bagai.!)adalah mendesign RESORT yer. site? ciater, kebun teh, bandung, indonesia. cam byk keje la kan... pastu kan...gatal la kan g nonton kan.... alasan, nak carik idea! iyo lah tue! but then.... STEP UP 2:the StreEts... sangat best! sape penagh nengok step up dlu mesti ske citer ni. siyes. sape suke nari...sape suke tgk org nari...sape suka ...err.... act, sape2 je la... go watch dis movie. (well....maybe fara d ni jakun or wat, but i've always been a fan of these movies involving dances and sort. mak tapandai nari, so tgk jer la....huahuhu...) but hey, for me, dis movie, interesting. dah dah...g tgk sendiri or tunggu dvd kua ke hape. fara d got keje to do. cannot blog lelama (alasan!! tendang!!*)